It’s been an exhausting 7-days. Just trying to purge the overwhelming feelings. I feel like I have been holding my breath waiting for it to get better. Now that the water is running and the dialysis machine has been serviced I feel thought I would feel like a weight has been lifted. I don’t feel … Continue reading
It’s another post where I need to purge. Another day where End Stage Renal Disease (ESRD) is effecting my mental, emotional and physical strength as a caregiver wife and working mom. WARNING: This is another post that is dealing with blood. This may be a trigger to some. He had another bleed out. This is … Continue reading
I go to do my morning business in the boys’ bathroom because Franklin’s on the machine and his dialysis tubes and stuff block our ensuite. I could climb over and squeeze by the rolling table that holds the prepared gauze pads “pillows”, 2 strips of tape cut to size to adhere the 2 pillows to … Continue reading
I’d love to write a more eloquent post that starts with how I’m feeling, the different reasons why, and then conclude with some profound insight. The reality is it’s a shit storm over here and today my rose coloured sunglasses fell off. I am PMS’ing hard and have noticed my patience and ‘go with the … Continue reading
Every person should know about th human body. For females and fathers of daughters, this is particularly true. So, here’s some great info about the vagina. Disclaimer – I am not a gynecologist. I am a female who’s learned a few things and preach to my kids “listen to your body”. Vaginal discharge is normal. … Continue reading
My darling went to sleep healthy without any signs of sickness. No fever. No cough. But that all changed at 2am. He woke up crying, coughing hard and struggling to catch a breath. It sounded like he had something in his throat. Hubby had put him to bed and I asked aggressively (in my defense … Continue reading
I wanted to title this dreams, commitment and accomplishments, but I wanted to truly commit. This may sound weird, but the title gives me some anxiety. Like, if I can’t make it I’m a failure. My preferred title gives me hope that I will try my best, but if I don’t make it then “oh, … Continue reading
Thanks to the encouragement of my cousin J, I’m back on the bandwagon of blogging! Thank you for taking the time to read and keeping in touch with what’s going on with me. Your kind words are much appreciated! Christmas was great! Hectic as it was, it was amazing to have all the family together … Continue reading
It’s supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year. Supposed to be… This is just going to be an emotional dump. No structure or order. I just want cry for a minute and then pull myself back up. I can’t take any time off during my probation at work. I’m exhausted when I … Continue reading
Was bread making day today. One of the loaves i made was this Garlic Parmesan and Oregano white loaf. It’s all finished within 2 hrs out the oven. Delicious. I always enjoy making bread. The family loved it and are begging me to make it again. Enjoy xx Ingredients 500 grams bread flour (I added … Continue reading
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