It’s been an exhausting 7-days. Just trying to purge the overwhelming feelings. I feel like I have been holding my breath waiting for it to get better. Now that the water is running and the dialysis machine has been serviced I feel thought I would feel like a weight has been lifted. I don’t feel … Continue reading
I’d love to write a more eloquent post that starts with how I’m feeling, the different reasons why, and then conclude with some profound insight. The reality is it’s a shit storm over here and today my rose coloured sunglasses fell off. I am PMS’ing hard and have noticed my patience and ‘go with the … Continue reading
Just want to get down the dates, just in case I need to refer back. The anxiety, worry, fear and stress is a combination I know all too well. He last did dialysis Monday. Today is Friday. For anyone who knows dialysis, this is not good. Monday – dialysis Tuesday – off day Wednesday – … Continue reading
Although the new year started last week, it was still holiday mode. Today is the first day where everyone is back from vacation at both work and school. Back to the grind. For me, it’s back to intermittent fasting (IF) and making a better choices. And for me it started yesterday with some meal prep. … Continue reading
It’s supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year. Supposed to be… This is just going to be an emotional dump. No structure or order. I just want cry for a minute and then pull myself back up. I can’t take any time off during my probation at work. I’m exhausted when I … Continue reading
I ate til 7:30 last night. I could have stopped at 7, but those digestive cookies were calling me. 4 of them to be honest. I’ve been fasting for about a month now. At times I feel like a have a decent handle on it in that I don’t give in to every craving and … Continue reading
I think this week will be the end of new job posts. Or should I post until my 3-month probation is done. I could technically be let go without cause at this point. Some likes or comments would be helpful dear readers (yes it’s an attention needy move 😂 ). Today, the long term trainer … Continue reading
I get up too early. Since I’m in the training room today I can catch a later train. Since I didn’t meal prep on the weekend I go and make the days feed bag: Omlete – 1 onion chopped and carmalized, 2 slices of kalbasa chopped into small pieces so it’s like I have a … Continue reading
Milestone at work. Taught a class. I was pretty awesome IMHO. Need to get the phone and PDF exercise flow a little cleaner, but I’m a perfectionist. I covered all the learning points, but could be cleaner. Yah me!I ate at 11! And ate healthy for the day: Green tea for breakfast 1 pack plain … Continue reading
Baby is starting to wake when I leave. Ugh. There’s alot of tears and demands for cuddling. This wakes up the big boys sometimes. Or I have to wake them up if hubby is doing his dialysis. Just not good for anyone. Welcome to a glimpse of the working momma. It is too cold to … Continue reading
