It’s been an exhausting 7-days. Just trying to purge the overwhelming feelings. I feel like I have been holding my breath waiting for it to get better. Now that the water is running and the dialysis machine has been serviced I feel thought I would feel like a weight has been lifted. I don’t feel it. I’m hoping blogging the dread away will help clear my mind and heart.
Waiting to exhale….
I realise why I’ve been holding onto each day instead of just letting go and starting afresh. I have to remember what the dialysis/water situation has been so I can recount it incase this goes south and he doesn’t get enough dialysis. Always having to remember when was the lat full run. Is he under dialysised? Do i have to push to get him into a clinic to get him dialized and recount why it is urgent to get him a spot and not wait until the next day or next week.
I appreciate the reflection blogging has helped me achieve. Now I pray everything goes back to routine and this headache I’ve been getting everyday can go away.