I love looking through my stats to see what people are reading. And then I read some of them again. One post in particular that came up Feel The Emotions – Do Not Ignore. I wrote it a couple of years ago and it was great to re-read and re-live the feelings. On a flip, … Continue reading
Fak! With more and more exposure about the importance of mental health and breaking the stigma I wonder where I stand. Don’t get me wrong. I want to live each day to watch my children grow and cherish each moment with my husband and family. I look back at our Big family trip to Mexico … Continue reading
Although I am working from home, I still wake up at the usual time. 😔 I would have slept longer my stupid alarm didn’t go off. And of course I set it to ring 3 times for 1 minute at 5 minute intervals from the initial start. It was charging in another room and is … Continue reading
I woke up at 4:30 am again. Tried to do some mindful meditation and was able to fall back asleep. Phuck yah! At 6 am I start making moves, but baby wakes up too. We cuddle. Big boy wakes up. We all cuddle. Franklin ends his dialysis session 20 minutes so he can do his … Continue reading
I wake up from a weird dream and my bladder is ready to burst. The bits and parts in my dream that I remember is Franklin had to pick up some tings from The Neighborhood from Bobby Green and he was standing on a balcony yelling down to me. I telling him to hurry the … Continue reading
This morning is a bit rough all around. I woke up at 4:30 am….again. As usual it’s to go pee. I try my best to go back to sleep, but the mind won’t shut up! For a few seconds when I envision the view when I was kayaking by myself at the cottage, I almost … Continue reading
Staying up late enjoying food and family is the theme of our holidays which translates to late night cannulation. This has a trickle effect as completing dialysis doesn’t happen until 8+ hours later. Well, when your children wake up at the crack of dawn to open gifts it’s another life lesson of patience, love and … Continue reading
Where there is a storm a rainbow will soon shine. I’m still in the eye of the storm. To the point I cried big sobs and screams of how I can’t do it anymore. Why the fukc am i crying? It’s a job. It’s not my world. But, the crush of my self confidence when … Continue reading
I knew it was my turn to wake up with the other children. He was supposed to be on the machine to do his dialysis. But when I woke up at 5:30 a.m., the dialysis machine was off. But I am too tired and starting to get sick with a dore throat to even talk … Continue reading
A new emotional rollercoaster ride that is Franklin’s health. I didn’t want to write about it, but with my pregnancy hormones and life as it is, the extra bump is just too much to keep bottled up and I need to get it out of my mind and heart, if even for only for a short time … Continue reading
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