Hormones are just all over the place. Feeling anxious about my job again this morning starting at 4am, 5am and 6. Thankfully my dear hubby gave me the pep talk I needed. I just haven’t found my stride yet. I know my stuff. Once I figure out their processes I will blow them away with the training program and policies I have created so many times before. Multiple awards and recognition for my contributions to propel a company’s employee knowledge, skill and productivity. I can do it. I will do it. The uplift is exactly what I needed. This is what it means to be married to your husband, coach, lover, best friend, cheerleader, rock and beacon of light and hope. He is the staff I lean on. I love you my dear husband.

I get on the train and I want to blog about the low then high of emotions…..of my life. I check the stats of my blog posts and notice one about What I Miss that someone has recently read. Curious as to what I missed at the time I wrote it, I launched it to read and reminisce. It is a bittersweet surprise. It was good to remember. To feel the love I am filled with that it brings tears to my eyes. I feel them well up and I stop reading and tilt my head back, hoping it will not ruin my make up and somehow absorb back into my eyeballs. I should stop reading and save my face. But I can’t. I want to feel the love and pain. I continue to read and stop. Over and over till I reach the end.

My melancholy is strong. Life? Children? Work? It’s Monday? PMS? All of it!

I just put on some tunes and lose myself till I have to hoof it to work.